Watching Phantom of the Opera… watching Gerard Butler’s acting is better tham porn
WORST. NIGHTMARE. EVER.
I’m not even kidding, I dreamed Trev wanted to leave me and j got really sick to my stomach and I was trying to talk to him about it. He moved back with his mom and not even 2 days, he had got a new girl. And I thought I passed out, because I had been shocked by thinking “I’ve given up everything fIr you… I’ve given you everything I have….” so I thought I had fainted… And when I woke up, before I knew it was dream, I had already decided “FUCK it. He’s the one who took away my depression, he’s the one who didn’t want me cutting anymore. He’s the one who wanted me start eating again. And if he doesn’t care anymore, than neither do I.”
Holy FUCK I hope Trev gets his electronics sooner than this weekend because I REALLY want to talk to him!
Hearing a Walmart worker tell me “You cocksuckers” runs through his mind all day at work made me feel better about me thinking “you motherfuckers” all day at work!
Buuuut he’s got a better job s few towns over and won’t be skipping work to come get frozen yogurt anymore :-( which makes me sad. He’s one of my favorite customers. He’s ALWAYS polite, gives good tips, is funny, and talkative, but also understands that I have a.job to do. He rants to me, I rant to him, and we exchange “motherfuckers” and “cocksuckers” stories. Which is a lot of fun! I was excited to hear something (finally) seemed to be working out in his favor! But now that means he’s gotta move along. :-( sigh.
I’ll be moving here soon, anyway. Its going to be so weird…. Ya know…. Not seeing the people you’re used to see everyday…. Not living in the same town you’ve lived your entire life. I’ve never even MOVED. I’ve lived in the same house since I was BORN….. I… I don’t know how “moving on” will be for me…..
If “Slow Dancing In a Burning Room” by John Mayer doesn’t make you want to give a strip tease you’re wrong.